Popped my tiny blue tablet (sleeping pill hor) now stonning and waiting to fall asleep soon.

I need a new skin for my blog after I get my Ipod Mini... must start hunting for one. but for now... back to stats studies... ciaoz

It was a hectic week. Every other support staff was on leave or MC one day or another. My boss was on Mc and my other boss was on leave. Imagine the workload piling one me. Plus I lost 2 credit files. I am hoping they will miraculously 'walk' or sit themselves on my deak on monday. Yesh Candice... dream on.

After the test yesterday, which i nv really studied, I stayed on for the interesting lecture. I think Stephen has a way with his words and he makes class entertaining yet fulfilling. I always feel like I am destressed and smarter after his class. haha

Then Steven suggested we go moon watching. Apparantly it was last night that we can see the moon and mars together. but it was MOONLESS last night until 1+. I managed to see like half a moon. You remember you always draw the moon as a crescent. I dont know what happened. The moon was halved yesterday like it got sliced or something.

Before the moon watching thingy, we went to Jingshi's house and played with his baby. AW SO CUTE! I love the smell of baby... maybe i should have my own...

Friday's entry....
after much hesitation... pondering... i finally decided to get an Ipod mini for myself~ YIPPEE!!!!

Its gonna be in Pink~ hehe my favourite color

Met another poly friend today. he is working at ***bank...haha the way he describe the environment, its like even worse than us over here. Then he suddenly brought up the plight of my other classmate whom I meet abt 1+ month back. Since we graduated, she has not found a permanent job and is floating about on a contract basis. I suddenly start thinking how fortunate I am.

I got a pair of Funky glasses but I guess its not for the faint-hearted. My bosses can't take the shock. Most of them give me the feel I shouldnt wear such fashion statement in the serious bank environment. Anyway... do I care? You pay me to do my job and I do it well... so why bother about my glasses. Besides, its practical! :P and I look fierce (roar!!!).

My cousin's colleagues commented that her glasses are really cool and funky. I hate my BORING workplace. *YaWn*

Carnival@Marina suck big time!!! I was there... the fireworks was not spectacular either. Haiz was such a disappointment. Its not worth that fact that:
- I went hungry for it
- Had a big fight again
- Got my feet dirtied by the mud
- Walked like 30 mins to the stupid MRT station
- I felt cheated by paying for overly priced and horribly tasting food

I didnt dare say anything about it since it was dear who wanted to visit the carnival. I didnt want him to feel like I was complaining and also that I was skeptical of being too pampered myself. But the 933 DJ and the article in TODAY confirm my suspicious afterall. HAHA

Sometimes, when it comes to a point whereby you start doubting yourself. As quoted by a friend, "Life is worse when even you start doubting yourself." She is right you know...

Friday once again...

Time is passing so slowly today. I wish I wish it is 6 pm now. Then I shall leave at 6.15 for my hair cut.
Thinking of cutting my hair real short. The stress of life... work... studies... is killing me. I want to just snip off everything that I have.

Just cut it all off and wait for it to grow out once again... maybe by then i will know exactly who I am and what I want.

But... but... but... my hair is my precious... I had such a hard time growing it out. It really is not worth it to get rid of it becos of a man...
argh! hate this kinda dilemma... plus i will not look as good in short hair.... argh!!!!!

Met a friend for lunch yesterday.... throughout all she could say was I have lost my brain and now I am a stupid woman. No longer the woman she knows...

Met a friend for coffee yesterday... he too told me the same thing and that he is disappointed in me...

Met a new friend online and was sharing my problems... he told me...

"Candice... you played a game and you lost. You never lose which is why you can't let go..."

It seems to have pierce right through me... maybe i dont really love you... the reason why I change is I harbour a hope that you will love me back more than what I have given you. I know it will never be the case...

I guess its time to let go...

why do i have to tolerate nonsense from you?
Look... at times when you are nice... you are really nice...
But when you are in a lousy mood, you simply shout and yell at me...
WHY WHY WHY am I putting myself into such shit???
I hate myself for not being able to pull away from you. And YES~ I am some cheap woman who hangs around night spots waiting to be picked up. I hope you will wake up some day!!!
I HATE YOU!
I HATE YOU!
I HATE YOU!!!!!

less is more... its perfect ... me and you

Popped my tiny blue tablet (sleeping pill hor) now stonning and waiting to fall asleep soon.

I need a new skin for my blog after I get my Ipod Mini... must start hunting for one. but for now... back to stats studies... ciaoz

It was a hectic week. Every other support staff was on leave or MC one day or another. My boss was on Mc and my other boss was on leave. Imagine the workload piling one me. Plus I lost 2 credit files. I am hoping they will miraculously 'walk' or sit themselves on my deak on monday. Yesh Candice... dream on.

After the test yesterday, which i nv really studied, I stayed on for the interesting lecture. I think Stephen has a way with his words and he makes class entertaining yet fulfilling. I always feel like I am destressed and smarter after his class. haha

Then Steven suggested we go moon watching. Apparantly it was last night that we can see the moon and mars together. but it was MOONLESS last night until 1+. I managed to see like half a moon. You remember you always draw the moon as a crescent. I dont know what happened. The moon was halved yesterday like it got sliced or something.

Before the moon watching thingy, we went to Jingshi's house and played with his baby. AW SO CUTE! I love the smell of baby... maybe i should have my own...

Friday's entry....
after much hesitation... pondering... i finally decided to get an Ipod mini for myself~ YIPPEE!!!!

Its gonna be in Pink~ hehe my favourite color

Met another poly friend today. he is working at ***bank...haha the way he describe the environment, its like even worse than us over here. Then he suddenly brought up the plight of my other classmate whom I meet abt 1+ month back. Since we graduated, she has not found a permanent job and is floating about on a contract basis. I suddenly start thinking how fortunate I am.

I got a pair of Funky glasses but I guess its not for the faint-hearted. My bosses can't take the shock. Most of them give me the feel I shouldnt wear such fashion statement in the serious bank environment. Anyway... do I care? You pay me to do my job and I do it well... so why bother about my glasses. Besides, its practical! :P and I look fierce (roar!!!).

My cousin's colleagues commented that her glasses are really cool and funky. I hate my BORING workplace. *YaWn*

Carnival@Marina suck big time!!! I was there... the fireworks was not spectacular either. Haiz was such a disappointment. Its not worth that fact that:
- I went hungry for it
- Had a big fight again
- Got my feet dirtied by the mud
- Walked like 30 mins to the stupid MRT station
- I felt cheated by paying for overly priced and horribly tasting food

I didnt dare say anything about it since it was dear who wanted to visit the carnival. I didnt want him to feel like I was complaining and also that I was skeptical of being too pampered myself. But the 933 DJ and the article in TODAY confirm my suspicious afterall. HAHA

Sometimes, when it comes to a point whereby you start doubting yourself. As quoted by a friend, "Life is worse when even you start doubting yourself." She is right you know...

Friday once again...

Time is passing so slowly today. I wish I wish it is 6 pm now. Then I shall leave at 6.15 for my hair cut.
Thinking of cutting my hair real short. The stress of life... work... studies... is killing me. I want to just snip off everything that I have.

Just cut it all off and wait for it to grow out once again... maybe by then i will know exactly who I am and what I want.

But... but... but... my hair is my precious... I had such a hard time growing it out. It really is not worth it to get rid of it becos of a man...
argh! hate this kinda dilemma... plus i will not look as good in short hair.... argh!!!!!

Met a friend for lunch yesterday.... throughout all she could say was I have lost my brain and now I am a stupid woman. No longer the woman she knows...

Met a friend for coffee yesterday... he too told me the same thing and that he is disappointed in me...

Met a new friend online and was sharing my problems... he told me...

"Candice... you played a game and you lost. You never lose which is why you can't let go..."

It seems to have pierce right through me... maybe i dont really love you... the reason why I change is I harbour a hope that you will love me back more than what I have given you. I know it will never be the case...

I guess its time to let go...

why do i have to tolerate nonsense from you?
Look... at times when you are nice... you are really nice...
But when you are in a lousy mood, you simply shout and yell at me...
WHY WHY WHY am I putting myself into such shit???
I hate myself for not being able to pull away from you. And YES~ I am some cheap woman who hangs around night spots waiting to be picked up. I hope you will wake up some day!!!
I HATE YOU!
I HATE YOU!
I HATE YOU!!!!!

less is more... its perfect ... me and you